I was talking with a friend this weekend and I mentioned that my oldest daughter had applied to a junior college for the fall.
We talked about the financial costs, where she would live and how it would all work.
I talked about how I thought she was ready and how she was excited about the idea.
And then my friend stopped my babbling, took my hand, looked me in the eye and asked me,
'Yes, and how are you REALLY with this?'
How am I with my baby leaving home a year earlier than planned?
I'm uh, honestly?
Thrilled for her, frightened for her, sad for me, excited for her, mad at how fast time has flown and even slightly jealous.
Basically? I have no idea how I am. So far, I've just been focused on her.
But, my daughter is thinking about leaving home.
How am I with this?
I'll get back to you on that.
Right after I take a valium.
Followed perhaps by a red wine chaser…